Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Reflection of my 28th year

Today I enter into the last year of my 20's! When I think over the last year my immediate response is to say "Adios 28- I will not miss you AT ALL!" But upon further reflection I think I just might miss 28. It has been by far my toughest year. I have had almost everything I hold dear ripped out from under me. My marriage took a hard hit this year, I lost the security of a comfortable ministry (is there even such a thing....and if so maybe we should double check it!), the security of a comfortable income, and the security of a familiar place with friends I love and could always count on! I have lost a lot but in the process I have gained more of Jesus. Jesus has proven Himself faithful to me time and time again. When I felt like my world was crumpling around me, which has been often this past year, His Name has been my strong tower (Proverbs 18:10).

Thank you Jesus for loving me through all of my complaints and grumblings. Thank you for choosing the wilderness for me. You wanted to take me on a journey where I would know without a doubt You are enough.Your grace is sufficient. The journey has been tough but You have been my constant guide- my ever present help in my time of need (Ps. 46:1). I am excited to continue the journey with You and know that even you if choose the wilderness it is for my greater good and Your glory will be center stage. I choose you Lord- I trust Your plan and your purpose. I rest in the fact that You do indeed make all things all new.

"I have heard of You by the hearing of my ear; but now my eyes have seen You." Job. 42:5